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spacey
Hello my people! Oh how i've missed my blog-- and you! For those of you that don't know, the picture above is my Trenton. He is the reason that I picked up my life and moved it to Nevada. If there are questions regaurding Nevada's where abouts- it's a small town 90 miles south of Blue Springs. I miss the city alot. I can't say that I miss the people or the traffic, but there are some things and some people that i'm having a hard time not being around. The way I look at it is faith. I have faith in God. Meeting Trent, honestly has been the best thing for me. Trenton is a very religious person and for those of you that know me, know that I am not. All my life i've had questions about religion and God. I never knew that all my questions would be answered in a book. A book called The Gift, was my saving grace. Trenton and I went camping for a weekend at Stockton Lake. We met a couple there who were there for the weekend as well. Trent knew them from someone he went to high school with, so we ended up having dinner and smores around a camp fire. These 2 people were so special in my eyes and I couldn't figure out why. As the night went on Steve and Brooke began telling us about themselves. At the time I was sarting my new job at Insite and Brooke told me that she was working there too! I was happy that I found a friend. Steve told us that he was a minister for a small church. They were very religous people so Trenton found his buddy right away. We started talking about the movie Passion of the Christ. Im not sure if all of you know, but that movie struck something inside of me. I couldn't breath by the time the movie was over because I was so overwhelmed with grief and happiness. I had no idea. Anyway, I was telling Steve about the things that I didn't understand about the movie. Most of you know that I have a different way of thinking about things and the way I take things are also a little strange. I haven't met alot of pepole in my life that can talk to me in a way that makes total sence to me. Especially about God. Steve made sence to me, he understood my mind and what my heart was saying. Without even saying anything, he knew what I needed. He knew I was lost and that I was afraid. He told me something that I will never in my life forget. He told me that I don't have to be afraid to mess up. He knew that was my fear that I live my life by. Steve also knew that I haven't ever read the Bible. I told him that I tried to read it like a book and that it made no sence to me. Steve went to his car and brought me a book called The Gift. This book was written for poeple like me, it's a bible written like a book. I can honestly say that The Gift was the most meaningful gift that anyone has ever givin me. Before our night wound down, Steve asked me to pray with him. I had never prayed before so I had no idea what to do. I looked at Trent for answers and he took my hand and said "say what's in your heart". Well I did just that. I thanked God for giving the the loving family that I know that I would never be able to live without. I thanked God for taking my brother into his hands, and thanked God for my Mema that prays for us every night and for sending her to me as my guardian angel. I told God that i was willing to trust Him, and that I wouldn't be afraid anymore. I gave my life to Him that night. And it was beautiful. I have faith in myself and my heart. I also have faith in Trenton. I look at him a different way than other people do. He is a special person and he is every bit a part of me than I am myself. I know you all have been wondering about me and what the heck Im doing down here. I want you all to know that I am very happy.
Posted by lindsayclarkmo
at 7:57 PM MDT
